The lyrics to the Casting Crowns song, "Praise you in this storm" keep going thru my head. I am in the middle of a storm but I know that the Lord is in control and no matter how sad I feel, he knows what is best for my life and I trust him.
On Monday I went to the doctor for my 16 week OB Checkup and they couldn't find a heartbeat. I had to go to Lexington Medical Center for a dnc. I am recovering but I am sad.
My plan didn't work out. The Lord has another plan in store for our family, and for that I am thankful. But it is hard to see the big picture at the moment when my heart is so heavy.
I got to see the baby by ultrasound on Monday and it looked so perfect. Perfect face, perfect arms and legs. Perfect baby. I chose not to find out the sex because that would have made it more real. It was hard enough.
Thank you for everyone who has called, your cards, your flowers, your emails, and most of all your prayers. This Thanksgiving I will spend my energy being THANKFUL for the wonderful family and friends I have.
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